Tuesday, September 04, 2007

~I want to CREATE and NOT have CANCER~

~I WANT TO CREATE and NOT HAVE CANCER~

SO, this is my newly improved room.....it's ALL MINE...to do with what I want. It's what I see when I walk in the room to go to my computer. (notice the other side of the room is not pictured because, well, it's a DISASTER!!!! LOL)


IT MAKES ME WANT TO CREATE....and NOT THINK about my CANCER!!!!
I have been really sick this time around. TODAY I THREW UP!!!! OMG!!! IT WAS HORRIBLE as I forgot to take my nausea medicine. I totally spaced it off and did I ever pay for it.


I DO NOT WANT TO GO THRU THAT AGAIN. It was a pain from the deepest part of my gut and I have never puked like that. I'm sure some of you out there that have gone thru chemo know exactly what I am talking about.

Another thing is MY entire body gets wet and clammy....my body feels like it just puked...it's the strangest thing ever, My Mom watched it happen and said I get all WHITE in the face and look faint. I FEEL FAINT too when it happens. I do believe it's the white cell count as it makes me dizzy too. Then I get the shivery shakes....I start to get cold.

And you know when you have been at a movie theater and you walk outside into the sunshine after the movie is over. It seems sort of SUR-REAL, sort of like everything is either really small or really big, well, that is how my entire days are for at least 7 of them following chemo. It's like you can't take one more step or look at one more thing, you just need to shut your eyes and go to sleep. And so, that's what I have been doing.....BUT I WANT TO CREATE!!!


~MIRRORS MIRRORS and MORE MIRRORS....Another OBSESSION of MINE~ ~NEW but made to look OLD and VINTAGE GLITTER RABBITS~
~ANOTHER DOWNFALL.....HAT and STORAGE BOXES~

~MY LOVE OF VINTAGE RIBBONS~
~MY LOVE FOR VINTAGE BUTTONS AND VINTAGE JARS~(Close ups TOMORROW....more of my COLLECTIONS like VINTAGE GLITTER and OLD OLD SEASHELLS)
So all of you out there, PLEASE CREATE and DO SOME FUN STUFF FOR ME....Let me live thru you while you make GORGEOUS THINGS!!! I LOVE ALL OF YOUR BLOGS and THEY ARE BETTER THAN ANY MAGAZINE I COULD SUBSCRIBE TO.....KEEP IT UP.....BECAUSE I AM YOUR FAVORITE FAN!!!
Love and Hugs, Amy

DISCLAIMER OF PICTURE ABOVE....LOL It IS THE "OTHER SIDE" of MY SHOP/ROOM.....TOLD YOU IT WAS A DISASTER but I wanted you to see that it's NOT ALWAYS BUTTERFLIES AND ROSES.....Just LIKE LIFE!!!

36 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Amy! I want you to not have cancer and I want you to crate too. Such a lovely space. as always, prayers for you and your family. I'm off now to create a new illustration since I am notorius for putting my creativity on hold. Hugs

Becky said...

Hi my sweet friend! It's ok to have a messy side! We are not perfect, especially when we are busy and, with you, sick and not feeling 100 percent. Don't let the clutter of "things" get to you. I promise you, it will not go anywhere. All of your things are talking to each other and saying, "Gee, do you think we should clean things up for Amy?" The little blonde doll on the lower right abruptly said, "No! We will make too much noise and she needs to sleep!!!!" So, there you have it. I love your work place, Amy! That one half looks so wonderful and love how you have your buttons in the jars! xoxo sweetheart! Becky PS: Yes, Jesus loves me and he loves you!!!! Hallelujah!! and praise be to the angels next to you!!!

LAJUANA said...

OOHH AMY,
I LOVE YOUR SHOP!! I AM JEALOUS!!! AND THAT RIBBON HOLDER IS TOOO DIE FOR.I SEE MY LITTLE MATCHBOX I SENT YOU!! I NEED ONE OF THOSE TO HOLD ALL OF MY RIBBBONS.I WILL KEEP SENDING YOU PROJECTS I AM DOING.GLAD TO SEE YOU ARE WANTING TO CREATE AGAIN, LOVE YA, LAJUANA

carole said...

Amy Darlin:
It is like pink princess fairy studio!!! Totally you, my friend. I love all of it.
Get well and start creating again. Then Maddi can do Mommie & Daughter things again : )
Love & Hugs
c

Mary said...

Hi Amy - sorry you've been lousy again - soon be over hopefully and then your creativity will run wild. Meanwhile, each project I work on will be in honor of you - I'll think of you as I pick papers, colors, ribbons, buttons and such.
Enjoyed your sweet notecard and hope to see you in that hat one of these days. Don't forget, you promised to take pics for us!
Get plenty of rest - and don't forget your meds.
Warm hugs as always.

Lori @ Katies Rose Cottage said...

Amy ~ You are so cute ! I love your room !! We all have the messy side :o)
I am so sorry that you are feeling so lousy !! I wish we could all give you big hugs and wish we could all have a huge party together when this is all over !!! We will have have a virtual party !!!
Lots and lots of prayers and hugs to you Amy !

Sweet Remembrance said...

Oh Amy...Your workspace is wonderful, you have so many inspiring things around you!
I hope you start to feel a little comfort soon and can start creating again...
Priscilla

Patrice said...

Amy!!! Love love love your room, all your very own, very kewl! I even love the messy side, makes me feel right at home :) Hope you're feeling up to some beautiful creating soon, my friend!! xoxoxoxo P

Lallee said...

Just one more treatment to go.....just one. Let that be your carrot through this week. "......where troubles are far behind me."

As for your studio, can I just move in with you???? I'm going back to look at all your pretty things again, but first.....sending lots of hugs.

Lallee

Lori said...

Amy,to have half a clean room in your state is commendable!! I wonder everyday if I could ever be as strong as you are, I just don't think so. You are remarkable to all of us readers! Love, Lori

~Becca~Bluebird Rose said...

Amy, I LOVE your studio! Whew, I'm glad you shared the "other" side too, because that is more like mine! :)
Love all your collections, your pretty ribbons, hat boxes.....
You'll be creating again soon, and until then, you can live vicariously through us all you want....... (if I can come and live in your studio for just a day! ;)
Hugs to you, my friend!!

Becky said...

Hi Amy! Sorry I missed your call! We were out on a walk when you called. I'll buzz you later! Oh, you have been TAGGED by me for the middle name game. Check out my blog today for the rules. Love you! Becky

The Urban Chic said...

Amy sorry you got smacked with your treatment. Now for your craft space, it is lovely like you. I just love seeing pink, but my craft room will be red with my red hat things. Just think, one more treatment and you can craft forever and ever Amen. Hugs, Pat

Camie M. said...

Amy, You have such a talent at placing things and making everything look so perfectly sweet and pretty! You will be back to creating very soon, and we're all excited and praising the good Lord that you'll get that chance!!
For now, you rest up girlie!!
Love, Camie

She'sSewPretty said...

so Amy...I know you didn't mean to...but, you totally made me cry. I want you to hurry up and get better cuz I am dying to see what you make with all of that fun stuff. Thank you for my card yesterday. I feel the same way about you. I think I should talk the hubby into moving out there so we can be neighbors. LOL I want to play in your room.

Vicki Palmer (Pink Pearl Girl) said...

Hi Amy,
I love the pictures of the space where you create. One day soon you will be back doing just that. A lot of us have not walked a mile in your shoes but we admire your courage,humor, strength and faith! You have shown us that no matter how bad it has been for you going through this terrible ordeal that you have a caring heart as big as the sky for others! Amy we are all praying this will soon all be behind you and you will be back doing all of the things you love. You will never know how much you have touch all of our lives sharing this part of your journey in life. Take care and I hope you are feeling better soon! We love your posts good days or bad! Love &
big hugs from the pink pearl girl!
Vicki

Mary said...

Amy, Your room is looking lovely!!!
I like the way You used the little shelf for ribbon. I am going to get my little green one and put my ribbon on. I love boxes to stash thing in...As for the messy side, you know most of us do have a messy corner we just can not get time for :)I have my to do projects out so I can get to them...Hope you feel better tomorrow.
Big Hugs Sweet Lady :)

Judy said...

Hi Amy, I love your room it is so special and I love the way you have all your ribbons etc. displayed. I even like the messy side. I hope you feel better soon and remember to take that medicine...how awful that must have been.
Lots of hugs

jerri said...

Amy,
No one wants you to have cancer. We are praying for you and someday you will say, "I no longer have cancer."

Joy said...

I LOVE the fact that you showed us the other side of the room. :)



Hugs,
Joy

Ele at abitofpinkheaven said...

Thank you for the "thank you" card you sent me. IT was so unnecessary, but was sweet of you. Your room is soooo pretty. Praying for good days for you.

shab-n-chic said...

Hello Amy!
I loved seeing your crafting room..oh how I wish I had an extra room like that! The "other side" sometimes looks like my dining room when it's time to ship on ebay! I hope you are feeling stronger and better with each day sweetie. I pray for you each night.
Hugs~ Nancy

MJ said...

Hi Amy! I popped by to catch up on your news! I regret that you can't create vicariously through me currently; my head is stuck in books and a laptop. Soon, though, maybe soon.... Take care!

Stephanie said...

Hi AMY! At least you have a great sense of humor about all! That other side of your room is a hoot ~ that's exactly what I do, crop what I don't want to show right out of those pics!!!

We both share a love of mirrors & bunnies!! Love that you shared some of your pretties with us!

I'll be zooming special prayers your way that you are feeling much better SOON!!

Hugs & Prayers,
Stephanie
Angelic Accents

Genevieve Olsen said...

Hi Amy! Sorry you are not feeling so well! And I hope that you are soon creating in your great space!! How pretty! My space looks like a dungeon in comparison! Hehe! I hate to puke I had my fill with both of my pregnancies!!!! I hope that you are soon on the mend!

The Urban Chic said...

Amy, I just found out that one of my craft group friends has breast cancer---Peggy, and she can use all the prayers she can get. She has been through so much in the last 5 years and this is a shock to all of us. Hugs, Pat

IsabellaCloset said...

My dear sweet Amy...How my heart hurt for you today. Thanks for calling me this morning. I was worried about you all day yesterday, yes I had the feeling sometime was wrong. I'm so sorry you had such a very bad day. Yes you just want this cancer to be done, gone and over. PLEASE hang in there only 2 more Chemo treatments to go.
When you cry it upsets me because most times you have been so up and possitive through all this. I know you are really feeling down right now. Wish I could be there to hold your hand and we would then cry together....
Please know you are loved by all.
I hope tomorrow will be better for you. Love & lots of hugs to you.{{{{{{{{{{AMY}}}}}}}}}}
Your cyber Mama ~Mary~ :-}

daisy cottage said...

Dear, sweet Amy - hang in there and soon you will be creating all the time and feeling so much better! I love this beautiful space that you have - and your precious card to me is now tacked up on my memo board in MY office space... and I think of you every single day.

xo,
Kim

cityfarmer said...

Hi hon...I miss our chats....keep the dream...I will be posting two fabulous rose covered hat boxes on ebay soon unless you want to buy them outright....
athomedesign@sbcglobal.net


xoxoxox
cityfarmer

Counting Your Blessings said...

Morning Amy. If you have a chance, go take a look athttp://mypinkboutique.blogspot.com/ The hand shadows are amazing! Blessings...Polly

lizz said...

Amy,
I went through chemo two years ago and I know what you are going through. Cancer sucks. You have a wonderful shop and I hope you get to spend a lot of time there during this process. Lizz

BeachysCapeCodCupboard said...

I'd even take the "messy" side of your gorgeous craft room! =) Hope you're feeling soooo much better! =) hugs! xoxo

Mom2fur said...

I hope you don't forget that medicine again so you don't have to go through such an awful experience. Cancer is bad enough for you to deal with! But I'm glad you have that gorgeous, sweet room to escape to. What a great place, mess and all. Really, anyone who tells you she keeps her craft room clean all the time is a liar, LOL!
Feel better!

Anonymous said...

AMY!! Please get back on your blog! You are an inspiration to all of us! I have not written to you, but have read your blog everyday. I noticed you have not written anything in several days. Please, Please write us a few words. We miss you and love you! You have encourged me to go for my regular exam! I love your creative room, get back in there my friend!! Keep a positive attitude, we ALL are praying for you!! LOVE, LOVE, YOU!!!!!!!!!KATHEE

Lori @ Katies Rose Cottage said...

HI Amy ~ I was just checking on you and wanted to tell you that I am thinking about and praying for you ~
Lost of hugs and prayers !!!

Gayla said...

You have been on my mind, in my prayers, and in my heart. It has been a long time since this post, so I'm afraid you have been feeling very sick. I hope that is not the case. We love you, Amy.

Gayla