Friday, July 20, 2007

~WOW WEE~ HATS FOR AMY~

~HATS FOR AMY~

I cannot even begin to tell you how overwhelmed I am by the support and giving hearts of you gals out there....NEVER in my WILDEST DREAMS could I have imagined the OUT POUR of LOVE from all of you!!!
My mail lady pulls up in her postal vehicle with more boxes from YOU!!!!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU BECCA for getting the ball rolling on HATS FOR AMY as I never knew what was going on until I talked with Mary today.
I received my first hat from Niki from Nostalgia at the Stone House and when I saw the hang tag on it that Becca designed (at that time I didn't know it) I thought that maybe Niki might be making hats and donating a portion to Breast Cancer Research. I HAD NO IDEA!!!! WHAT FUN THIS HAS BEEN!!!
As soon as I feel better (I am weak, tired, nauseated and crying a lot these past few days....I think the whole cancer thing is overwhelming me and making me mad that I can't do the things I want to do) I will post pictures of me in all of these FABULOUS AWESOME HATS!!!!
WHAT AN OVERWHELMING FEELING and YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT A GODSEND they have been. I am SOOOO COLD and SHIVERING all the time now that all my hair is gone that even in this heat of Iowa summertime, I still need to wear a hat. I even sleep in them!!!
HUGS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF LOVE to ALL OF YOU!!!
FOREVER GRATEFUL.....Amy

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

~NEEDED PRAYERS for FRIENDS~2nd Post Today


THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR DOING THAT FOR ME!!!
YOU'RE SIMPLY THE BEST!!!! ~Amy~

~YOUR PRAYERS ARE WORKING~

~THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS~
TODAY IS MY 2ND ROUND OF CHEMOTHERAPY, I WANT YOU TO KNOW I DIDN'T SLEEP WELL BUT WHEN I DID FINALLY FALL ASLEEP AND AWOKE I WAS AT PEACE.....ALL THANKS TO YOU!!!!
YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WORKING WONDERS AND I THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IT MEANS TO ME TO GET EMAILS, POSTS, CARDS AND PACKAGES FROM ALL OF YOU. I KNOW THAT IS WHAT KEEPS ME GOING AND HUMBLES ME. THE OUTPOUR OF LOVE FROM THOSE OF YOU I KNOW AND THOSE OF YOU I HAVEN'T MET IS A TRUE TESTIMENT OF HOW WONDERFUL EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU ARE TO ME AND TO THOSE BLESSED TO HAVE YOU IN THEIR LIVES.
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.....WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS HOW GRATEFUL I AM!!!!
LOVE AND HUGS TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU......AMY
(PS...I will be nauseated and tired for the next few days but will try to check on my emails but probably won't be able to post on the blog until Monday. I don't know what I was thinking but I have 99cent/no reserve auctions ending today and tomorrow so if any of you are bidding on them, I will get them out to you first thing next week....sorry about that, I was just feeling so good at the end of last week and it felt so good to list on ebay since it's been over 2 months since I did so...thanks for understanding...guess I am living EACH and EVERY DAY to the fullest without worrying about next week)
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3: 5-6

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

~A MELTDOWN DAY TODAY~

~I AM NOT HAPPY TODAY~ ~BUT I AM TRYING~
~WHO SAYS DR. EVIL DOESN'T HAVE A TWIN~
~EVERYDAY MORE AND MORE HAIR FALLS OUT~

I am not really happy today, I am having a MELTDOWN!!!
I am getting sick to my stomach and I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO CHEMO tomorrow. I cry at the drop of a hat and I just want this to be over with. I finally started to feel "normal" last Thursday night and thru the whole weekend only to have to start all over again feeling yucky, sick and tired.
I don't care that I lost my hair, I don't care that I had to go thru surgery and reconstruction those are nothing to me compared to having to go thru this stupid chemotherapy. It's like self inflicted sickness and I am starting to get really upset that I even have to go thru this.
I think I have been thru enough.....I'm already tired and I feel like I haven't even begun. It just SUCKS.......that's all I can say today....I DON'T WANT TO GO!!!! I just want to pull the covers over my head and wake up when it's all over with.
~Amy~

Monday, July 16, 2007

~5 WEEKS POST OP....DR. APPT. TODAY~

CAN YOU BELIEVE it's ONLY BEEN FIVE WEEKS since I had my Double Radical Mastectomy???

You will not believe how beautifully I am healing!!! I have new pictures taken last Monday and I too think you will be amazed!!! I have a PHOTO JOURNAL for anyone interested. However, please note, THESE ARE ACTUAL PHOTOS of my BREAST SURGERY and all of the healing process so please use your discretion. CLICK HERE to SEE THE PHOTOS and read about the process.


At 1:00 today I go in for my next appointment with my plastic surgeon to see about adding more saline solution to my expanders. Lets hope everything is going well and I can have more added.


Have a Happy Monday and it's a GOOD HAIR DAY FOR ME......I am almost BALD and will have pictures of my head tomorrow.
Hugs and Love to you all, Amy

Sunday, July 15, 2007

~One Year~July 15th~

~EDWIN THOMAS SCHNEIDERMANN JUNE 12, 1939-JULY 15, 2006~

It's Been One Year since my Dad passed away. As much as it hurts, I truly believe with everything that I am and as I sit here and breath that God knows what he is doing. Had I not gone thru hearing that my Dad's cancer was too far along, and sitting there for 9 days watching my Dad die of cancer last year, I think I would have handled my breast cancer so differently.

I HAVE A CHANCE, I CAN FIGHT, MY OUTCOME IS FABULOUS, unlike my Dad's. THAT'S WHY I feel the way I do about my breast cancer, that's why I am taking it all in stride, that's why I am not as scared as I was when they basically handed my Dad his death sentence. I miss my Dad so very very much and I am thankful for the time I did have with him. Until I see you again Daddy, I love you.....Amy