Well today at 10:00 am I will finally get my last drainage tube out. YIPPY SKIPPY.....11 days is LONG ENOUGH!!!!
AND.....at 10:30 am will be my first visit to my Oncologist Doctor.
Today I will find out what kind of chemotherapy I will need, when I will start and for how long I will have to take it.
I am starting to get COLD FEET and I said to Bob this morning....I was all okay with this at first but NOW I AM STARTING TO GET SCARED. I CHANGED MY MIND......(it is a woman's prerogative to do that you know) and
I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY HAIR,
I DON'T WANT TO BE TIRED,
I DON'T WANT TO BE SICK.
I didn't sign up for this and I don't want to do it.
I think the whole reality of all of this is finally sinking in...
Please don't think for one minute I haven't had my MELTDOWNS and CRYING SPELLS....because I have!!! I'm just don't want to think about going to get my first chemotherapy treatment.....It's already making me sick to my stomach....Amy