Wednesday, November 14, 2007

~Love One Another and More Cancer Side Effects~


I know this is one of the best things to do, yet I am soul searching and reading in my Bible how to be better at this. (any good scripture you know of, please email to me, I so love those positive words!!!)
So, when does it come to a time where one is tired of being the doormat for others (see previous post) and it's REALLY REALLY HARD to love that other person??? I feel guilty for not following those words of "Love One Another" and it lays heavy on my heart. Such a struggle with this for me right now and you would think after all I have been through this would be something that would come so EASILY!!! It's so frustrating at times.
I found out that since I couldn't keep the kids for 5 days during Thanksgiving break so she could go out of state with the flavor of the month that she said, "She using the Cancer Card as an excuse not to take the kids." OUCH....THAT REALLY HURT because she has no idea how tired I get and how I am still trying to heal from all of this. What is really amazing is that she is a nurse at a hospital and I hope to God I never have her as my nurse. One would think there would be some compassion and love there....but I guess not.
I have to keep reminding myself, "GOD HASN'T FAILED ME YET and HE'S NOT GOING TO START NOW!!!"
Yesterday I had to go to the dentist and have ONE of MANY teeth pulled. Chemo has taken it's toll on them and the dentist decided to just pull one to see how well my body healed after taking it out. Since my blood cell count is still low, we need to see how I do. Also, he didn't want to pull them all because I need to be well for my 2nd phase of reconstructive surgery on the 3rd of December. So far, so good, it's very sore and I am taking penicillin for any infection that might come up but I am happy it is out of there and that tooth ache feeling is GONE!!!
It's getting cold here and the wind is blowing like crazy....the radio station has started playing 24/7 Christmas Music and it's a welcomed sound.
Have a great day today and I will try my hardest to keep my glass 1/2 FULL and Love One Another......Hugs, Amy


Counting Your Blessings said...

Oh Amy-girl, you have no idea how I have wrestled with this very same thing! For many years! Julie, over at Nunnies Attic, has a wonderful relationship with the ex and has been inspiring for me. It started about 3 years ago in my heart - knowing that by not loving my ex (in a Godly way) that I was being disobedient. It's so terribly hard. I'll see if I can pull together some of my Bible study notes that may be helpful. Though I still struggle with it. Here's the one thing that I work on everyday: taking the wrong thoughts captive and making them be obedient by NOT dwelling on that thought.

"The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." 2 Cor. 10:4-5
Love you sweetie - Polly

~Becca~Bluebird Rose said...

Hi Amy!
I have found there's a big difference between loving someone and LIKING them. I think we love them, as in concern for their soul, but we don't always have to like them.
I cannot believe she said that. She has NO CLUE what it's like to be in your shoes. Grrrrrr!!
(((((hugs to you my friend)))))

marylou said...

Dear Amy,
I tried to come up with some words of comfort for you and finally I thought...hmmmmmm..maybe I should try something else. So, I decided to make a hopefully humorous post to make ya smile:-) I read this the other day and almost "peed" my pants, pardon my French! It is a quote from a funny gal named Rita Rudner, she says & I quote....
"I don't plan to grow old gracefully, I plan to have plastic surgery until my ears meet":-) HAH
Hugs, Marylou

BeachysCapeCodCupboard said...

"God is able to make all grace abound toward you, that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work." That's from the Bible somewhere (I'd have to look it up - but I've memorized it as I use this one ALOT)! =) Hugs to you dear lady! xo

Camie M. said...

Amy, The Lord (and my mama) have always told me to pray for the people that are doing me wrong or that I just don't like for some reason or another. I pray for the Lord to guide me, of course...but praying for that "other" person will make a world of difference. Don't pray for the Lord to change them, but ask God to show them the joy and peace that you know, and to be with them in their time of need and searching. Not always do we know what their circumstances are, what has brought them to the place they are at, what made them behave the way they do, etc. It's the hardest thing to do at times, but I always find when I pray for that person I am SOOOOO angry with, things start to miraculously change...whether it be in them or in me. Amazing that at the same time they are being touched by your prayer, you are learning more forgiveness, compassion, patience, kindness, generosity, and on and on. Prayer is the most powerful tool you have in your belt. Use will NEVER wear out!!
Hugs, Camie

carole said...

Amy Darlin:
Marylou said it really cute : ) You are a strong human being and much loved by so many of us : )
Love & peace

ginger at enchanting cottage said...

psalm 34:4

I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.

I read your blog offten and have prayed for you, I have never left a message before because I could not find the words. Until you ask for some scriptures. Please visit my blog sometimes. I have a verse there now but it is also my blog about my home and fun stuff.
God Bless

bj said...

Sweet Amy, I've tried several times to leave a message here on your site but had trouble with it, for some reason. I was delighted when it went to your comments page this time.
I've been praying for you for a long time and am so happy you are to this stage. Prayers continue!
I think we can love someone as a child of God while not liking them one little bit. God gave us such a range of feelings and as long as we can know that God loves EVERYONE, then we can, too. Sure doesn't mean we have to like them , tho!!
hugs, bj

Susan Drysdale said...

Hi, my favorite verse that works for lots of situations is Jeremiah 29:ll "I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." This always makes me feel better whether I'm sick or mad or frustrated or whatever. Because sometimes I forget how blessed I am and how much God loves us and he does not want us to suffer, he wants us to be happy and healthy. Lots of love and prayers for you!!! Susie